I think I’ve fallen off the radar! I’ve been sort of wandering through the past couple of weeks in this insomnia induced haze, trying to keep my head from bobbing below the surface for too long. I’m not even sure why, but my ability to sleep and sleep soundly has somehow escaped me recently and I would very much like it back! I’ve never had serious sleep issues before and I’m not sure why I’m still having issues. I know it kicked off while hubby was out of town, which usually causes some fitful sleeps, but things tend to get back to normal after a couple of days. Not so this time. I have now gone for two weeks straight with 5 or less hours of sleep. I have compiled two up all-nighters, 3 less then 3 hours and almost a dozen of 4-5 hours broken.
I did managed one night of blissful ten straight, dead to the world, couldn’t wake me up with a band, hours of blissful sleep, but it required 10 rum and cokes, hours of good sex, and 3 hours of sleep the night before, plus 6 hours in the sunshine and 3 hours in Chuck-E-Cheese Hell for a nephew’s birthday in order to achieve this bliss oblivion. Unfortunately the body didn’t even respond the next day as if it had slept for ten hours, instead I felt like I had drunk 10 rum and cokes and spent 3 hours too many around 100+ screaming kids.
I’m beginning to believe part of the issue may be the selling of the old house, or the lack there of. We haven’t completely run out of money yet, nor are we in danger of doing so in the near future, but I think I’m expecting this to be the proverbial shoe that so far hasn’t dropped yet. You see, my mate and I have this weird relationship with Murphy’s Law. When ever things get going in the right direction and everything seems to be going just right, we make some major decision feeling confident we’d be fine and then… The shoe drops and things begin to fall apart fast. It doesn’t seem to even matter how well we research something or how prepared we think we are, Murphy always finds a way to get us in the end.
Next month will begin the first month of double house payments, and I know we had hoped that wouldn’t happen. Even though we are prepared for it, having to actually do it sort of feels like the beginning of that downward spiral that always manages to find us in the end. While the house seems to have a pretty steady stream of lookers over the last month, so far, no one is buying. Three more showings in the next couple of days, so there is still hope, but I’m afraid to hold my breath.
Found your blog while looking for some other adults who write. Noticed you are in KY, I'm outside of Cincy but used to live in KY and still have family there. Never heard of Bunko though....
Posted by: Jeni | October 18, 2004 at 08:09 PM